I feel you beating in my chest

So I've finally graduated from Cardiff University with a music degree. It's weird, I know I was working towards it but didn't really hit me that one day I would actually be walking up to collect my award, dressed in my graduation robes. That one day being yesterday.

Yesterday made me realise several things. I'm still very much camera shy. My parents are more amazing than I can possibly imagine. And I'm not in love with my ex girlfriend.

I won't delve into the last point much but it's quite an important thing for me, considering we were going out for nearly a year and a half (which is basically half of my time in Cardiff) and we spent a lot of time together. A LOT. She was my best friend and I didn't want to lose that, no matter what happened. But things change, as they do, We got bored, annoyed, angry and upset and we fell apart not only as lovers but as friends. Thing is, I was more upset about losing her as a friend than as a lover. The worst thing was, she didn't seem that much affected by it. Four days after we broke up, she started seeing someone else. And then they broke up. And she started seeing someone else. And then they broke up.

Really, what was the point? She said she regretted getting with these guys which makes it even worse. I'd rather she be happy with her actions than do them just to try and make herself feel happy and me feel bad.

She has a talent for remembering lyrics very fast. Usually after one listen of a song, she'll know all the words. Let's see.